October 25, 2011

On a concise note

I said my 4 'goodbye's in the last 5 days. Goodbye to the times that I stared at them helplessly, not knowing what else I have left to do for them. Goodbye to the times I felt so exasperated or frustrated at them that I wished to just stand up and leave. Goodbye to the times I almost dozed off waiting for them to complete a single task or in some cases, a single sentence. Goodbye to the times I sighed deeply as I repeated the same instruction or the same prompt for the 3rd time.

Of course, it's also 'Goodbye' to the smiles, the innocence, the unexpected chuckle and the smart-aleck comments.

I think it's the right time, the right decision. Even if it's not for myself, it's for them. I have come to a point where I have so little to offer and I could only wish there was more I could do. Wish, but not do. I hope someone more apt, someone more energised will take over my place. Someone who can give them more.

The new arrangement is still underway. I am optimistic but I am also realistic.

Before all that happens, I'm going to a new place. To explore a new place upper north. A place I've always wanted to visit, and finally get a chance to. Even if that means braving some floods.

Looking forward to our holiday! A holiday well-awaited, well-anticipated, well-deserved.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:29

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